Ok... So my boyfriend and me almost together for a whole year... We have like phone sex... And I love him and stuff but.. I just I feel like I only know the person I am when I'm with him... And like all my fiends go out an stuff but he's not that type of person so we never go out... I just I want to be able to explore myself individually ... And when I explain that to him... He's gets super suicidal and wants to kill himself :/