Help please I'm going crazy..

So I'm 11dpo my Af is due in 2 days and starting 9dpo I had light cramping  up until now but the cramps feel like period cramps now which is odd bc I usually don't get cramps until a few hours before it actually starts... I took a 1 dollar test yesterday and it was bfn. I'm scared to take one today bc  already stressed bc I want this baby... But anyhoo I don't have spotting, nothing. My cervix the last time I checked it 2 hours ago was somewhat low and hard.. My cm is dry  but when I touched my cervix it was really wet (sorry big time tmi) is that normal for one bc I've just recently learned about all this and now obsessing. Is this implantation cramping even though I'm not spotting??? Or just a abnormal period?? I've been having quite a few symptoms too.. Such as; Occasional runny nose.. Gagging.. High temp. Hot flashes.. Increased hunger and thirst.. Blood sugar dropped.. Uncomfortable feeling in stomache... Lower back ache.. I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm going to be completely devastated if my Af comes????