Defeated.

This is my 10th failed cycle of ttc number 2.  Our daughter was conceived in the first month. I don't know why, but this is the first month where I've really just broken down when AF showed up. I guess I assumed it would happen quickly, as it did with our first one. I convinced myself that I felt pregnancy symptoms and really thought this would be my month. My husband doesn't understand why I'm upset (he says the ole "that means we can work on it another month" attempted pep talk), and all of my closest friends are pregnant or also ttc, so I hate to complain to them. Ugh. Pity party over here. ?