Negative ???

Mary • Mom of Lliam, born Sept 2015 ❤️
I'm 13dpo and I can feel AF coming, but I was hoping it was a miracle growing inside me instead, nope flat out no question negative test. I told myself I would wait until Saturday if AF doesn't show tomorrow, but my brain said nope you're not pregnant, ...and then I gave in ?! Wannhhhh .....maybe this whole "trying" is overrated and we should not "try" (seems how my whole FB feed gets pregnant ?) But how can I go back to "not trying"? Lol it consumes most of my thoughts ???