Another month... Another breeze of hope

​Doesn't it happen to you? You know AF is around the corner and you start wondering if this will finally be the month your hpt finally shows 2 lines... Try to feel deep in your body in case there is any change that could be a sign of a miracle... Geez... I go through this every time... And then BFN... Sadness... Frustration...Wanna give up but again, when it's almost time for AF I wish I could finally read a positive, it's like I get my hopes back and I run to the store for my hpt #58 haha! It would be better not to think about it so much-that's what people say-and "relax"-like people say- but it's hard; it's hard to forget that you want to give all your love and all you have to a new little person... Or maybe it's just me...