Venting!

Been actively trying to conceive for a while. My husband has not been supportive of me lately. I know he is trying to deal as well. The problem is not him it's me. He could sleep with another woman tomorrow and knock her up and I will still be infertile. Anyway I have to put off ttc for a while as my pcos is just making everything worse and I have to be on blood pressure meds and others which I cannot become pregnant because it will harm a fetus. I tell my husband and he walks out of the room. I try to talk about it a day later and he says he "don't wanna talk about babies!!" I tell him how hurtful it has been along with all of my other stressors and my health being poor and he just rolls over to sleep. Here it is 2:10 am and I'm crying my eyes out and he's in his tenth dream. Frustrating!!!!