So hopeful! But afraid to test

So here's my full chart for the last month. No spotting 2 BFN on the 9th and 10th waiting as long as possible to test again. AF due on the 12th. I test orally at 8am every day egg white CM. Increased sex drive/appetite, cheese cravings, diarrhea, mild cramping on and off all day mild acne, fatigued mid day, mild insomnia. My mother had and issue where the HCG would only show up on a hpt after 8 weeks no miscarriages and we (3girls) were all healthy.