Maybe I'm just too emotional...

GM
So, I found a list of names in mine and my boyfriends bedroom and by the look of them they weren't ordinary names so I googled them and every single one is a pornstar.. I have no idea why this rubbed me the wrong way but I felt like crying. I'm just about to start my 2 week wait and it has been a crazy stressful week! Sex has been a chore and it seems like SO doesn't even want to do it anymore despite the fact that he knows how bad I want a child. It's gotten to the point where we've actually been fighting during sex! We're both super stressed out and I think this just added to it. So I texted him and I said maybe if I was one of those girls you would actually want to have sex with me. I probably should not have said that but I'm just so stressed and upset. Help :(