I went through some rough stuff last year my boyfriend and I did and it's taken a toll on us especially me pretty hard. It basically comes down to we want to have a child finally. Unfortunately it's more him than me at the moment. After I had a breakdown a few days ago he wishes I would try to have one for the next month if it doesn't take then we can wait. I'm not really sure what to do I want to but at the same time I don't think we are ready. I'm still in school and work full time and he's finally starting to get stabilized work and going back to school as well. He thinks we can handle it and I'm just not sure as of yet. We are trying to save to live on our own first so I'm not sure how we can do this. I know he really wants a child though. I just over think things about it. I just don't want to struggle and there is a eye disease that runs in my family if I have a boy there's a 50% chance he could go blind and only 10% for a girl. So I have a million things that run through my head not to do it but I have a couple of reasons I really want to after our past years events.