Very complicated relationship, advice?

Melissa⚓?

My boyfriend is ex-Amish.. before we become serious we had a talk about him going back, he said he more than likely wouldn't & I didn't need to worry about it. Well, last week we had another talk.. pretty much about maybe going mininight.. (might not have spelt that right) I just don't know what to do. I am madly in love with him & would do anything for him. I just don't know if I can do that.. I'm just afraid that we're headed to a dead end and I'm going to get hurt No matter what.

If you have any questions just ask.

If you ladies have advice or opinions that would be great.

What would you do in my position?

Thank you in advance.