Big disappointment

Monica • Soon to be mother of two. I`m ready to have more I`m energetic and outgoing , ready to meet moms and moms to be and connect
So AF came and paid me an early visit this morning. Really upset because I was hoping that I would be pregnant based on the signs I was getting these past weeks. I been really wanting to get pregnant for months now. I'm ready and I have been doing it all from sex to keeping up my health and all. I'm starting to lose hope and wonder if God doesn't want me to be happy and have a child. I'm just trying to make up for lost times with my mom who passed away 9 years ago. Maybe it was not meant for me.??