Since getting my BFP a few weeks ago I'm still surprised that I'm finally pregnant after waiting and praying for 7 months after the loss of our last baby. It hasn't hit me yet and I'm 5 weeks now.  I have an ultrasound scheduled for 7 weeks gestation. I've been incredibly emotional since Monday morning and I'm actually embarrassed about it. Other than close friends and one family member knowing, no one else knows and I'm so afraid to tell anyone else. I guess it's fear of another painful miscarriage. The thought of bringing home a baby in June gets me excited but I'm just waiting until I know everything is clinically fine. I hate feeling this way.