After a terrible night last night, of finding out I guess my SO has been chilling with a girl named sydney because he texted his home boy asking if he could bring him that $20 so he could go chill with sydney. I don't know who this bitch is... Apparently it's his sisters best friends daughter and that sydney is just a friend. So I called his sister and I asked his sisters  bestfriend and niether one of them know a Sydney. My ISO (insignificant other) lol says that he thought her name was Sydney but he wasn't sure, I told him he was a liar an left him last night and went home, he came and picked me up after work and I had all his shit packed up all his letters he's ever wrote me, the necklace, ring, earrings, photos, everything thrown in a bag and he's like "what's all this for" I said "don't you remember, i broke up with you" well he remembered but he had been drinking a little bit since he left work. Which he told me he didn't go to the bar, he bought some alcohol from the liquor store (which was true but also a lie because he didn't already go to the bar)....- anyways long story short his stories are always mixed up and I'm always finding out something different, he's so hard to trust all the time. Then we went to Walmart last night... This is me still trying to give him his 1,000,000th chance but he's drunk an being obnoxious. He's riding the carts for old people and knocking everything over and crashing into things. I was really upset. I just can't stand him drinking, he also just got alcohol posioning the other day.... But that doesn't stop him. Honestly we wouldn't fight so much if he just wouldn't drink all the time but he won't stop for me, so last night he dropped me back off at my house, I told him to stay here so I could run inside and grab his stuff... He did exactly what I thought he was going to do. He waited until I got inside and then being the drunk asshole that he is, he sped off in his truck with out me giving all his shit back. I was furious, because I was outside with bags in my hand looking like an idiot as he drove off. I sent him text after text last night telling him I am officially done and he has really lost me this time. I told him I can't be stressing like this, I have my baby inside of me and that baby is more important than us right now. I figured he'd call in the morning like he usually does apologizing but nope... No calls. And it's kind of twisted because I feel like breaking down and calling him. But I'm stronger than that. But I feel so lonely, I really just want his love right now. But he doesn't even care either. Sorry for the length of this. Just ranting and venting.