POAS addict

Anna • Married since 09/09. We have a beautiful son, born on 2/11/13 at 36 wks 3 days. Ttc#2 since June 2014. CP 10/19/14 :`(.
I don't know why I test so early- and it is always torture to stare at the test and hope that another line will appear. Then of course I stare at the pictures all day and keep tweaking them- or it'll look at hpt faint lines for hope (we'll probably to torture myself more) I just have a problem. I'm a POAS addict. 
Obviously negative :-( 10 dpo