Not alone, just lonely :'(

Hey, ladies. Im a mom to many and a wife to a man who I thought was perfect for me and now I'm not so sure. I had 5 children when we met and I tried to explain to him how hard it was going to be, being a 27 yr old man with not much prior responsibilities, to instantly have 5 children and a wife. Needless to say, he said he loves the kids and I and wanted to marry me. So, we were married and had a son together. Since then he has cheated with an ex who stalks every part of my life(social media, phone, etc)he has said some really cruel things to me and recently said he wishes he didnt have so many responsibilities so he can come and go as he pleases. When I try to talk to him about things in our life/home, he never wants to talk and wonders why I have to say anything to him at all. I dont have any friends all I have is my children and him. When he rejects me, I feel crushed. Let me say that he is an excellent father to our children, he just sucks as a companion sometimes. Feel free to comment please.