Ttc getting me down

Leah
Had my mirena out beginning of july periods came back after 35 days or so been peeing on opk been charting my temps for the last 6 weeks taking the folic acid gave up smoking and still nothing each month me and my partner are devastated its not happened then im depressed for a week beat myself up over having a tefmination 7 years ago as if its some kind of karma its slowly driving me insane really wondering if its worth the torture or to just give up we already have 3 kids 13,9,8 so should i just be happy with my lot x