I've realized I can't give up TTC because I literally am unable to give up my desire to have a child. And as long as I want one (and it's been for as long as I can remember), I'll never been able to stop trying. I'll definitely be taking breaks and looking at our options but I feel like I'm going to have a baby one day, biological or adopted. I just have to focus on being healthy and keep going. And I'm so thankful to have a safe place to vent :)