Well this sucks.

When I was four days late, I took two Clearblue digital pregnancy tests and both came up positive. At first I was in shock, then was just accepting that this is happening, but now that I have known for a week, I am severely depressed. I've been in denial about it for a couple of days and I swear the symptoms mostly went away with it. (Lol can you will an embryo away?) I never thought abortion was right for me, but now the thoughts do creep in. How normal is this sudden and severe denial/depression? I go in for confirmation on Tuesday morning. No judgement, please, I'm just venting/gathering info.