TWW and scared * corrected

So I know I'm out for this month but part of me tells me to just have paitence. We didn't BD as much, only on days I weren't fertile! AF is due DEC 5! There's so many times before when I had all the right symptoms and AF was late, and I went and bought a HPT and it was a BFN.
any one else have this problem? scared to take a hpt? I feel like as soon as I buy one, all my symptoms go away!