This morning I woke up to use the bathroom. As I wiped I saw pink and then very little bright red. As the day went on, it was brighter and heavier. Along with some light cramping which later got stronger and more painful. I make my way to the ER so hopeful, praying that it's all in my head but I end up leaving with the most heart breaking, earth shattering news I could ever receive. My SO and I lost what was the happiest everything of our life. In that very moment, I was empty. Just the night before we're kissing goodnight to our little bundle of joy to be.. How do you cope with this? How do you move on? How do you hang on to any hope? How do you do anything when you literally feel your entire life ripped out of you. How could everything change in an instant? I never knew how painful this could possibly be. I never knew...