Ugh!!!

My mom has been telling me that I HAVE to name this baby after my father if it's a boy.. My father acts like he can't stand me half the time.. Hasn't liked me my whole life.. Doesn't even want me to be pregnant.. So I'm struggling with that. I understand it's a family tradition.. But.. Really? Then she just told me that if it's twins I have to name them after my grandfathers too.. Who also have never had anything to do with me.. One passed after my oldest was 10 months. And the other when my youngest was 2 months.. She kept telling me what to name my girls and now acts like she is there mother. Don't get me wrong I love her to death. Could not have done any of this without her. I don't mean to have bitter feelings about this.. But.. I'm seriously offended by this. Am I being ridiculous? Oh and aside from the meanings of the names.. My fathers name is Richard. I have already come to terms with I have to name him that (we're all pretty sure it's a boy) but Edwin and Lawrence are my grandfathers names... My brothers (who hate me and it's mutual) middle names are Richard and Edwin Allen (Allen being grandfathers middle name) Eddie is also my exes name (who kidnapped my daughter for a week before the courts made him give her back) I mean.. These names all hold bitterness.. And I HAVE to name MY child after them... Again.. Am I childish?