I don't think God.....

Can scream at me any louder than he just did, I think he has finally told me that I should NOT have another child. I was suppose to get my period the beginning of this week but I didn't want to jinx anything so I was waiting until the 1st to take a test and I am almost 100% positive that I am having a miscarriage. I just can't live with heartbreak after heartbreak every month! I'm done trying!!! I think I am going to go back on BC. At least when I was on BC I didn't have a period every month!