I'm so fed up !

If I'm not pg this month my partner doesn't want to try he wants to let us relax a bit :( he said earlier what happens happens but I just don't feel it within him I lost our baby 10th Nov we dtd when I ovulated I'm 12 dpo tomoz no positive so I'm definitely out I'm gutted trying was my hope now it's gone I don't know how to deal with it because I should be pregnant I feel so lost and hurt and I don't know where to go from here I don't know what to do I wish our baby was still safe in my tummy soooooo much I'm devastated :( I don't know how to deal with it :'(