Sad, confused, depressed

Hello ladies , I recently had a miscarriage Aug 28 and had yo get a D&c:( I really wanted this baby. I have a 9 year old who I love to death. Its just that I always thought I would have more kids by now. Thus miscarriage has really messed me IP mentally and physically where I notice that I'm not the same person anymore . I hsv changed. My doctor diagnosed me with depression?. Its just that I feel like the only thing that will feel this void in my life is having another baby . idk so I met this guy I'm going with and he has no kids and we talked about having kids and he just confuses me so he's like I think we shud start working on having a baby so I'm all excited downloaded this app just to be let down . I go see him and he's talking about we should wait until we get married and when he graduates college again. He is in the military . so that really hurt me sooooo bad he had me all excited just to be let down. Now I'm back to being sad again . I don't know what to do. Feeling like I will never have a baby again,??? ?????????