Feeling alone...

I have no one to talk to about what's going on with my TTC journey. Every time I try to talk to my best friend she just tells me that I over think it every month and to not get my hopes up. I wish she was more supporting. This is our 10th month for our 3rd baby. We never had to try this long before. We didn't try with our first and it took 6 months for our second daughter. I'm currently on CD 19. I think I ov early on cd12 because I cramps and then on cd 17 I had some blood when I wiped with some cramping. So I think it might have been early implantation. I have a ton of symptoms... Headaches, bloating, gas,cramps, lower back aches. I pray this is our month but I'm trying to not get my hopes up. I just need more support and positive on this hard journey.