Not this month ?

I broke down and tested today (AF due sometime this week) and for a BFN. I wasn't very hopeful since it's my first month off BC and I never got a positive opk but it still stung. A little piece of me really wanted that second line to appear. Maybe Dec will be my lucky month. Now I just want AF to show up so I can start all over again. Thinking I will try bbt this month. Wiping the slate clean...