Blood test RANT

Well today I got my blood test results and bfn. I can honestly say a freakin lost it and had an emotion breakdown!! I feel so heartbroken and let down!! Had a mc in august,had a d&c, got 2 regular periods and now I skipped a periods!! Had all the symptoms and nothin at all!! I'm actually very heartbroken. Don't wanna talk to my guy about my feelings at this moment cause the last thing I need is to feel shut down. All. I ever dream about is being a mother. It's just time!!!