Real touching for me:(

So in September I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant.I wasn't expecting it all! Me and my bf weren't ready for another child.We have a 4 ur old daughter.We are not married we don't live together and he barely started working again.At that time he didn't have a job only I did.So I thought of abortion.There were days were I said No im keeping it,but other days were im like "I can't bring this child to suffer,I can't do this there's no way" my bf was more of "it's your body your decision u will do what u want anyway" which was true.So I did,I ended my pregnancy with medication :( I was relieved at the time but after days went by I regret it SO SO much!!! It was so much regret I wanted to get pregnant right away I wanted my baby back.I was 6 weeks when I ended my pregnancy on October 3rd...After my period stopped from all the bleeding and I knew I was ovulating we started trying again.October passed I got my af November 10 so that was that then again we tried in November still no luck! We r now in December I am currently on AF.My period is irregular ..Dont know when it'll go back to normal.Hoping soon.I really want my baby back .No negative comments please this is real personal and touching for me.Has anyone gone through this before?