It's 5:31 am here in GA and I can't sleep, I find myself tossing and turning. Maybe it's the hormones of pregnancy, but I'm getting this gut feeling something isn't right. Recently my husband BM (baby mother) asked him to release his rights as her father for she is wanting to move on with the new men (he is being stationed somewhere else; military guy also) she is with and would prefer that he new boyfriend (or fiancé) be in that little girls life rather than my husband, so that he can "start his new life with his wife. " (her words)

I think she is doing that as a fear of her or as a retaliation or something, but anyway I go on, yesterday he asked for photos of her with the birthday present he had got her (Monday was her 2nd birthday) instead she sent him photos of him and his a daughter as baby, I guess what took me off guard is the fact that she has photos of my husband lingering around her phone.

So last night as I layed there trying to sleep all I can think was something was up with her. And than the thoughts of how in the bed I am currently laying was once the bed he shared with his ex wife and BM at some point.

As we embark of this "new journey" I've come to realize that nothing here is new, except me and kyra (our dog).

My first ultrasound is Thursday and and some point I was so happy anxious to be seeing or hearing my baby heartbeat for the first time, but the joy quickly turned into sadness when I realized this will be something new and exciting for me - Okay granted my husband wasn't actually there to witness the whole birth process of his first child (due to military obligations). That this may be a first for him. But I guess this is the selfish me talking I wanted this to really be a new experience, but I'm so worried that my over thinking is causing me more stress because I may be allowing his BM to interfere with what is suppose to be a blessing. Idk, couldn't I just be over reacting. Being scared, because this is my first pregnancy.

That she may be trying to get him back, with her little threats and photos.

I feel like I'm in a battle for my husband love with his BM.

Bbt dip then rise. No AF.