Venting.

I have never been the "popular" girl. Definitely not in high school and not at my university. I'm always somewhere in the middle of nerdy and "clique" I know I'm cute, smart etc but whenever someone likes me who's "in" the in crowd I never feel good enough for him, and I always feel like that person would be way better off and happier with a more confident girl who had like 20 friends. Right now there's a frat guy who likes me, and is actually extremely sweet and not cliche of the typical frat douche. But I'm so self conscious& half the time when i see him something's been wrong with me. For example, today I had a random crumb on my face.. Last week I had a little lipstick on my teeth. And though they are small things it bothers me to the point where I think he's not interested anymore and should just stick with the girls in his friend group. Idk how to get over my insecurities. It drives me to the point where Id rather just not see him so that I don't have to worry about myself all the time