Stressed out!!!

Im so tired of being broke all the damn time. No matter what we do we can't get ahead. Tried to get some kind of government assistance and we make just barely too much.  Are you kidding me? I'm to the point where the suicidal thoughts won't go away. I would never because I wouldn't screw my son over like that. Suicide means no social security. Plus he'll always wonder if it was his fault even though that's farther from the truth.