Ready to give up on this dream...

So my husband and i have one child (prince) together and he has a child from another relationship (my princess). They are 5 and 7 respectively. We have talked about having another child and have made plans 3 seperate times to "start trying" but when time comes, he finds a reason to push back or he'll just stop having sex with me for weeks at a time.

Well this last time, i thought things would be different and about 2 months before when he said we could try i went out and found these ADORABLE baby blankets. I love travel, Disney movies and my family crest has a fluer de lis (like the saints symbol). These blankets have hello written in 4 or 5 languages, fluer de lis and Mickey Mouse on each blanket. They are perfect. I bought them (did not show them to him) and he promptly said this was not going to be a good time to expand our family.

Now every time i see these blankets, i feel stupid, pissed and lied to. It makes me crazy that the two of us made plans but he's has all the power to cancel those plans.

I want to keep them but they make me sad. I want to give them away but I don't like the idea of someone else having them when I love them so much.

I've attached the picture.