I really want to have another baby. Sometimes I feel like I can't say that out loud as much as I'd like because of all the judgment and questions. Like I'm a lesbian so 'how would it work?' or because I'm only 25 or only been with my partner for a few years 'what if it doesn't work out'? Like then I'd raise my children like I raised my daughter when it didn't work out with her father... I just think I'm getting the shitty end of the stick here because I choose an alternative lifestyle I have to go through mazes and family history to have another child. When if I was just being a whore I'd be pregnant by now... the disappointment and anticipation planning a pregnancy takes has got to be the hardest part... I really just want to have another baby...