Bag of nerves!

Annette • Just got my bfp with our rainbow baby 🌈
As due date is getting closer im so nervous! I know I'm booked in for a c section but what if I labour early? It could be catastrophic. Those of you who don't know my history ive had one planned c section 2008, due to complications then in 2010 I had a failed vbac which ended in uterine rupture, I nearly died was so close! Although rare, I could have uterine rupture in my pregnancy (not labour) and then I have literally 15 minutes to get to hospital and be on the operating table before baby dies then I follow minutes after! It's so scary! I'm awaiting midwife birth trauma councilling but whatever they say isn't going to change what could happen! So stressed ??