So I'm now 8 days, 2 hours away from 9 days late. All negative tests but I felt like crap for 2 weeks. Never been late before like this. I went to the bathroom just now and it looks like af is going to start soon. Just a faint pink but enough to completely send me in the gutter. How do you guys not get super depressed when af comes? Every month I cry for at least a day. I've been extremely depressed to the point I'm now on meds. Even been suicidal because I feel like I'm failing my husband even tho he says I'm not. And I swear if one more person brags to me that they are pregnant tells me all about how they feel the baby move I think I'm just gonna curl up in a ball and die. :( we've been trying for over a year now. Why is it so easy for women who don't want a baby? We're dealing with ptsd/tbi and infertility.