Missing my little bean

Tonight i found a box of whole wheat crackers i got hooked on while pregnant, hidden way in the back of the pantry. It has been 6 weeks since it happened and i thought i was feeling better, i've been trying to think only of the happy moments and our short lived joy. The crackers just brought back memories, i remembered i was hungry all the time and that everything i ate i was thinking of him/her. I used to eat those crackers for my little bean, they were for him.