When we made the decision to ttc back in August, I let two months go by to clean of birth control...but then I got CRAZY... From wanting a "summer baby" to it might "take too long" so I HAVE to take ovulation tests. Well my husband got so mad at me the first month, I ruined the joy of ttc...but we got pregnant.  I got what I wantedt, the summer baby, that positive pregnancy test the first time we tried. It was great! But then, I lost my baby. My whole world turned upside down to the point where I was not even excited to ttc anymore.  The anger i held towards my doctors and finally making peace with it a month later...I vowed to put the opk's away, hide the pregnancy tests and delete the 500 pregnancy and ttc apps I had downloaded and keep glow to keep track of my period since the miscarriage.  I decided to try to enjoy ttc with my husband with the normal passion we had before I went nuts.  I may not have a summer baby this time but if it happens again I will have a baby that was made out of love and not the science of the tests that I thought I needed so badly.  I hope it works out for me...I think we finally made it back to our happy place sexually...Anyone else been through this?