My life has been crazy lately everything is moving to fast. A few months back I found out I had depression and anxiety also other health issues like IBS which causes me extreme pain everyday that makes me miserable . 😥😥 anyways lately I've been feeling terrible I haven't been able to take my meds for my depression and anxiety for 2 months now because they cut my health insurance off 😔 on top of that I started college back up and im working which is so stressful juggling both. I was in a relationship with this guy who I thought was maybe right for me but I had to figure out the hard way he was super disrespectful to me multiple times and always tryed to down talk to me and made me feel like complete shit. Before I was dating him I was with another guy who we don't date anymore we still talk but we're super close and all which is great.. The first guy idk I broke it off with him yesterday which was my birthday I turned 20 years old and he was being a straight asshole to me it made me so upset I just cryed all night. The other guy kinda did the same and ignores me now... I just feel so empty inside to the point were I don't even want to be here 😥 I've been having out burst of me just crying wanting or thinking about killing myself idk what to do it's like my life is falling apart everyday gets harder and harder for me. I have no one to talk to my mom is gone and I just feel so depressed and I don't even wanna do anything I just wanna give up on everything . 😔 somedays I just hate myself so much I wanna die ..I feel so alone and stupid.. I just wish I could be better then this but it's hard