I posted on here a while ago about a sent email in my hubby's phone to a spam porn site asking if she was there. It grew into me not even wanting him to watch porn, I'd always had an issue with it but never said anything till I saw he was going on affair sites and basically skyping other woman to get off, all while he was at work. I expressed my self to him and told him how it hurts me and it hurts our relationship. I figured if he loves me and respects me he will stop, or at least stop going to sites like cheatersxxx or men seaking affair site. But honestly now everything he does I question it, I'm having the worst trust issues and have a gut feeling that he could be out messing around while at work (he's a manager so he basically can go do whatever he wants).. like this morning he shaved and showered before work, he never does that. I don't know, I really don't know how to get past it because I know a relationship won't last with no trust, I'm really just over thinking everything like he had told me, but I can't escape the feeling of being deceived and lied to.