Do you struggle with self harm? If so how did you recover?

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I cut because I was raped multiple times and my "mother" (who let it happen and watched on occasion, glassy - eyed from different drugs) and i had myself convinced I could "bleed her out" 
I made myself stop, and then 3 years later my ex caused me a lot if mental turmoil. He has "Till" (what he called me when he needed me) cut into his leg still. I wish he hadnt. I have simply lines and regret them. When I met my current SO I was so embarrased. He had got me to stop drinking, but I warned him about my scars before we had sex (they're on my thigh). I was so scared he would see them and get mad and leave me. We had a really long conversation about them and he said as long as I promised not to do it again, he didn't mind them. He kisses them often. A couple times he left hickeys by them, saying I could remember him when I looked at the hickey, instead of remembering my sadness looking at the scars! :)

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My SO. He made me realise that I am loved and that when I hurt myself I hurt him. What he told me was every time you cut yourself you are cutting me two times deeper. Imaging you cutting my arm when you want to cut. I went from cutting sometimes to biting my knee then to stabbing my wall woth a lil pencil thingy and when I did scratch my arm with a safety pin  thingy he got really upset and cried. He is the reason I haven't hurt myself I hurt myself once after I met him well twice because once I bit my knee really freaking hard and the other I was scratching my arm with a safety pin. It upset him and whenever I have those urges he will call me and video call me and calm me down and talk me through it and tells me he loves me and not to hurt his baby angel

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I'm in the process of recovering right now,I relapsed last night

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This is a serious topic. Do you self harm? I suggest talking to a doctor who can help you. Glow also takes this topic very seriously

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Recovered for over a year but I still get the urge now and then and carried my blades with me for about six months like some kind of comfort blanket while I was learning other ways to cope. We could all relapse at any time but don't give up. Xx 🎀

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For me, I had many underlying problems I should have been talking about with someone. But at the time I had no real friends who I could actually talk to about how I felt, my mother was/is a smothering, narcissistic control freak, and my father a distant alcoholic. It took me years of making new friends who I could trust, having positive relationships, and seeing therapists to begin to unravel my emotional issues. Do you have anyone you could talk to about how you are feeling?

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I mostly just keep it to myself. This is the one thing i haven't told my SO about. He knows about all the shit I've been through, and knows I've struggled with depression because of all that shit, but he doesn't know that there have been a couple times where I've scratched myself repeatedly just so I could dull the emotional pain and focus on the physical. Though I never leave actual marks because I don't want people in my life knowing; they'd only make it worse if they did.

Yeah, I should seek help. My SO knows I should as well. But unfortunately, anyone that can offer good help is also significantly out of my price range. So I just continue to fight it and deal with it on my own.

It'd be great to end it all - I welcome death. Death brings peace or a new beginning. BUT I'm too much of a fighter to give up. It's a curse :/

Do you struggle with self harm? If so how did you recover?

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