But recently a lot has happened to me that; idk has caused me a lot of fear, angry, and pain. And all this is coming from my mother. 

 

So here I begin: 

My husband and I are having a ceremony wedding next month and it has been pretty hectic to say the least being it is a destination wedding. My mother has been "helping" plan the wedding, but it has been nothing but fighting on both our parts. My mother and I never had a good relationship since I was younger, I don't have the mother who when something goes wrong she is there to comfort you like my father she is the one to blame you and make you feel low because of it. 

My mother has never supported me in anything I did when I was pageant she told me I wouldn't win or that I have nothing going for myself to even  participant in it, yet she was there (to see me fail I assume)  it was my father who pushed in it, my mother was te one who told me I was not going to graduate high school because I was stupid, yet she was at my graduation and the one planning my graduation party. Which doesn't make sense. Lastly my mother was the one who told me no man would ever want to marry me because I was a whore, slut and so on and now I'm married and she is the one trying to "help" plan my wedding. I told her yesterday I would rather her not help, because she never once supported, was never proud of me. She didn't think I would get married and here I am married and happy and that has nothing to do with her. So why is trying to play this role of "good mother"? 

Now that I am excepting my first child is it wrong for my husband and I to not want her in our baby life because of the way she treated me and the thins she has said to me thoughout my pregnancy , she wish me to have a misscarriage, she was mad about something I said and that was her response when I said "I'm going to fight with you and have a misscarriage over something stupid". I will ultimately be punishing my father for he is still married her, but the of having my baby around her scares me to my core. Because God knows what she will say or do. Because like she says "when I'm mad I say whatever the fuck I want" and this has shown clear throughout my years of living. 

I've never known of mother to have so much hate for their child, and say things only a stranger would say. 😪