Marijuana

Let me start off by saying if you have any judgmental comments please keep them to yourself.

I had my back fused in 2013 and since then I have been taking hydrocodone and a muscle relaxer to control the constant pain. When I found out I was pregnant I immediately stopped taking it. I don't want my baby to be born addicted to it. However, now I deal with debilitating back pain again. Last night I couldn't sleep so I smoked a little weed and was finally able to sleep. Here is my concern, 1) should I force myself to go through the hydrocodone withdrawals without Marijuana to relieve the worst of the pain or 2) is it such a bad thing to smoke a little (and by a little I mean 2 puffs) to relieve the symptoms. I have done extensive research on the use of hydrocodone as a pain reliever for pregnant women and while doctors approve it the dosage I take is harmful to my fetus. I don't feel like I can approach this sensitive subject with my very conservative, religious doctor. So I bring it (anonymously) to this group who have been so helpful. Again if you feel the need to chastise me for my choices I don't care to hear it. I have enough guilt and stress on my plate there is no room for you to add more to it. TYIA for HELPFUL and CONSTRUCTIVE advice.