What would you do?

A few weeks ago, my husband said he was going skiing with some friends  on an upcoming weekend. A few days ago, I realized this would be valentines day. I asked him about it, and he got very upset, saying he'd wanted to go skiing for years (this is true). I didn't think it would bother me as much as it did... But it broke my heart. When I'd asked him why I wasn't invited, he said I could come but there wasn't much for me to do if I couldn't ski (I'm disabled). In all the years we've been together, we generally did not "celebrate" - usually because I wanted to save money - BUT we were always together. He was gone all valentines day and when he returned late that night, he was extremely irritable. When I told him how it'd really hurt me, he just got more upset with me. I've hardly spoken to him since then.  When O did, we just started fighting again. I depend on him so much, and I get so angry that I am disabled because I wanted to have kids and I went through with brain surgery (I had a stroke during the surgery). We've been TTC for just over 6months. Ever since we started ttc, we started having problems. He started drinking heavier, and doing shit like this. I tried to offer support, but obviously I didn't help. Please give me some advice. He  has been good to me too though , sticking with me through shit that even friends bailed on. Please help, I feel so alone.