I can't remember how I felt???

I had a miscarriage in October last year. I deleted all of my glow data because I was so upset and didn't want to see anything and be able to move forward! I now wish I hadn't done that. I haven't be able to get pregnant since and it worries me. AF is due end of this week and I feel like she may show because of cramping. But I have had sore boobs and have been peeing like a trooper but cramping can be a sign of early pregnancy. I have also had dizziness this morning. I really hope this is our month. I feel like my body betrayed me when it all happened and now I don't feel In tune with myself like I did when I first got pregnant. I don't want to think I could be pregnant because the disappointment is so painful each month!  Does anyone else feel the same?