8 dpo and caved

Never fails, every month I promise myself I will wait to test and then I obsess over early BFP's and binge watch utube live testing which prompts me to test. Anyhow here is my 8 dpo clear as day BFN. No matter how much I "prepared" myself for a negative result, it doesn't get any easier or soften the blow any. I stared at this test until my eyes were strained and even started making up an imaginary line in my head. Hope everyone else is having a more relaxing tww.