Don't Judge ladies

All honesty ladies , my man has no idea I've been talking to someone else on and off for almost the whole time we have been together (5yrs) .. I met him he pursued me and eventually got my # from a friend well we started talking just as friends i had no bad intentions.. Months pass and me and my man are going through a rough patch and i ended up cheated on my man one time with him ..he moves back and forth alot and has had relationships with other women of course but we have ALWAYS kept in contact on and off. Well he's back around my area at the moment and i recently had sex with him. It really has nothing to do with the sex obviously if we've only done it twice in 5yrs .. there's just something about this man that im very attracted to and i hate that i feel this way for someone else. .