I was alone for so long. I hated being single and I'm so grateful for my boyfriend of one year. But he's been depressed because of his job and he's trying to find a new one. We also live in New England and it's been a long winter.

Because of his depression our love life has suffered. Our sex life has suffered (he refuses all the time) as a woman it just hurts so bad. We're always blaming ourselves and I wonder if it's me. I gained a little weight maybe that's it? Maybe he's not attracted to me anymore? He says he's tired or not in the mood. And I try to spice things up and wear the right things and buy toys and nothing. And he doesn't see me during the week anymore. He used to see me every Wednesday and then we would stay with each other on the weekends. I just can't believe how lonely I feel when I'm actually with someone. ( I'm also on disability and home alone all day so that just makes it worse.) Also I'm 27 he is 29. Just so you can understand my story a little better. Just wanted to vent. Maybe some of you are going through the same thing? Or know how to make it better?