Raped

My paternal uncle raped me ..when I was in 4th grade.. i did not know what I was doing... he touched me in places ..and made me touch his penis. .and he kissed my lips.. am traumatised. . I've never spoken to anyone about.. but it haunts me everyday ... every night .... i cry myself to sleep some days... It was only later on i realized what he was doing is wrong. . But it was too late.. sometimes I hate myself !