Cant stop balling

Tiffany • Had my first on April 9th 2015.
I had plans to do maternity photos today and I shopped for outfits for it and tried them on. Got home and showered. Put everything on and I hated how I looked. Absolute hate. I wasnt comfortable either. So I cancelled the pictures and I have been so upset over it. I really wanted them. Anyone else having low self esteem at this point?