Trying so hard to stay positive

Katie • Stay at home mommy as of 6/30/16!!!
So I am 11dpo 7 mo trying and I have been feeling off for a couple days this week like having stomachaches which is weird I never get them before my period is due. Had a few days of cramping that passed. And today I was having more stomach problems and then that stopped. But now I seem to be cramping and I was cramping a little last night but that kind of went away too.  But today when I started to feel cramping and I went the bathroom I saw when I wiped two small small specs of pinkish CM when I wiped. I know I'm trying to stay positive but it's the hardest thing to do right now and I know Every woman goes through this when they're trying and they feel that they have it this month. I've wanted to test every single day this week but I keep telling myself no I'm not testing until I miss my period on the 21st. Bc I can't handle a negative! Maybe this is implantation or signs of implantation bleeding  I don't know but I've just got to stay positive until the weekend and not rule it out yet 😔😔😔😬😬😬